updates

So we have now had 6 games and haven't won one yet.  It is very frustrating and I am losing my patience quite fast.  That good winning feeling hasn't been felt for a long time now and it is about time to get back to the winning ways.  At this point in my life, I am not sure what will happen after Christmas.  Everything is up in the air at this point and I don't know if I will be coming back home for good or still be here in Sweden playing, or traveling somewhere.  I have been thinking and praying about it a lot lately because I am very torn with what to do.  I am no quitter (like you all know), but this has been a very hard couple months with the basketball side of things.  Coming to Sweden has been an amazing experience and I have got to travel around Sweden a little bit and see a glimpse of a Scandinavian country, which has been awesome.  I love the team and the girls are great, but I am really homesick and missing everyone back home.  It is quite lonely here and I have tried to be positive, but lately it has been extremely hard to be optimistic about it.  I knew leaving my family, the boy, and friends would be hard; but I didn't think it would be THIS hard.  At this point, I am not sure where I will be after Christmas and what I will be doing, but I will continue to pray about it and see where God wants me to be.
The coaching aspect of it has been great.  It is so cool to work with younger kids who speak a different language altogether and try and teach them the basics of basketball has been fulfilling and rewarding in itself.  Basketball is not very popular in Umea and it would be awesome to develop a basketball program for younger kids to get them involved, interested, and have a passion for basketball.  The key is to get them involved at an early age and develop a fun environment for them, so they will continue to play throughout their years.  Getting to that point requires a good coaching staff and commitment.  So that aspect of this journey has been uplifting to experience and have the opportunity to put my coaching skills to work. :)
The purpose of this post was to update you on how I am feeling currently about life in general.  I don't know what will happen but whatever I chose to do will be for the best.
And my grandpa used to always tell me to keep my head up and don't get frustrated.  I will continue to keep that mentality and remember his words when things are tough.
And in whatever you do, always have fun!

Have a good rest of the weekend.
Write soon~