go the distance

Today was Saturday and I have been thinking about a lot of things.  My whole life has changed drastically in the last few weeks and it is just now starting to sink in.  It is still so surreal to me that I haven't had much time to think about how far away I am from everything and everyone that I know and love.  Its starting to become more and more real to me as I experience new and different ideas and ways of thinking.
At first it felt like I was on a sweet vacation and seeing some new country, but now my mind and body are starting to get comfortable with my surroundings and the realization of this strange place being my home for the next 8 or so months is starting to become more vivid.
I must say that I am not a fan of phone conversations.  I enjoy listening to everyone and how things are going back home, but its just not the same as being there.  I always have so much to say and think about telling the person before and after the actual conversation.  I lose my train of thought very easily and can never get across what I need to throughly through a mobile device.  However; with that being said, I would rather talk on the phone than not talk at all.  It is amazing to me that this whole Skype invention thing works so well.  Think about this.  Someone can be thousands of miles away and no matter the distance, the picture and sound are generally pretty good (for the most part-crossed fingers).  Technology is something that will always amaze me in our day and age and how there is something new and better every year.  When will it stop?  When will people stop running out of ideas?  Good question.


So these past few days I have been struggling with this idea of distance.  It is incredible how big our universe is and how diverse the cultures and people are!  Things that are normal to a certain population are foreign ideas to another.
After our two games today (successful both times), we had a team dinner and ficka.  For those of you who don't know what a ficka is-it is essentially a meeting place with desserts, different dishes, coffee, tea, etc.  (I think.  Correct me my Swedish friends if I am wrong. ha).  A very traditional European/Scandinavian thing to do.  Great success Julia and Julia's mom!!


Being busy has helped with the whole distance issue.  It hasn't really hit me until recently and I have avoided bringing it up.  It is frustrating wanting to be in two places at once and even though this is not humanly possible (not yet at least), I wish it was able.  I would be the first one on board with that invention!  So if any of you are planning on making this work, let me know.


I have also been thinking about life in general.  How does it work?  How is it supposed to work?  Am I living it the right/wrong way? I wonder what life will be when I get back.  Will it be different in any way?  Will it be weird being in a different country and coming back to 'reality' in a sense?  Is my relationship with friends, family, boyfriend going to change at all?  Or will it be the same as when I left?  Sometimes this is hard for me to think about because I don't know the answer to any of those.  And I don't think I am supposed to know the answer.  I know that God has a plan for me individually and that I am not supposed to worry.  Worry and stress just weaken the soul and there are many things we should know and other things that should be left unknown.  So I am trying this new mentality of not worrying, and making the best of any situation.  I am starting to think in ways where what is meant to happen, will.  There is always something good that will come out of any situation and I truly believe that.  Life is what you make out of it.  Good or bad will depend on you as a person.


So even though we are so far away, I will continue on with my life and you will continue on with yours and we won't worry about the what if's, but focus on the present life and look forward to the future with no end!




"To him who loves us and has freed us from our sins by his blood, ⁶and has made us to be a kingdom and priests to serve his God and Father—to him be glory and power for ever and ever! Amen." 

Revelation 1:5-6

God is Good!